| Sunday, December 4th, 2005 |
| 6:01 pm |
Wierd how things change
so last night was ... odd to say the least. Me and brandon had fun at sams party and we were splittin a fifth of yager, enjoyed that. but then my buzz was totally killed somehow cody had gotten drunk. god hes a light weight now. well i had to be all responsible and stuff, my buzz was just gone. so then i get cody home and try to fool his dad, good think im an unobvious drunk lol. So then sammie calls and i try to get cody to sleep forever and then i finally get him to sleep. after that i had to call jacki back. Sorry about whats been goin on jacki. Hope everythings ok. Next weekend me and brandon are definitly hittin up a decent party. now i have to go do a lot of homework... |
| Monday, November 28th, 2005 |
| 1:22 am |
Yea you bleed just to know you're alive. (that line always gets stuck in my head)
So im sittin here on a sunday night cant sleep. So lets be serious here people, Jacki is the only one that reads this... and on that note Jacki this is for you ************ enjoy those stars! Yea wish i could talk to you more but its kinda hard nowadays. But you could always just start sending me emails and ill reply whenever i get a chance! see ya kid Current Mood: indescribableCurrent Music: Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Scar Tissue |
| Monday, November 14th, 2005 |
| 12:16 am |
ehhh
so what do you do when the two girls you care most about in your life both say that they dont feel like talkin... its fuckin wierd never thought either of them would say that. I don't know maybe I've changed, maybe I'm makin a big deal outta nothin, or maybe its them... who the fuck knows Current Mood: confusedCurrent Music: scar tissue - red hot chilli peppers |
| Sunday, November 13th, 2005 |
| 1:15 am |
Later that night...
so yea me and steve are just kinda hangin out buzzin. yep today wasnt very eventful we walked for fuckin ever but thats about it and then we came home and drank a lil not enough tho so now we are just kinda hangin out lookin for a reason not to go to sleep, well i updated just like i promised so now... im out |
| Saturday, November 12th, 2005 |
| 1:54 pm |
Fuckin chillin
Yea so just kinda hangin out and wonderin whats up with today its sunny out so time to find somethin to do. shit its nice out for fuckin november! Yea i'll update tonight, PEACE! Current Mood: energeticCurrent Music: Icp, Kmk, Twiztid, Esham, Bone thugs, tech n9ne - thug pit |
| Sunday, October 16th, 2005 |
| 10:58 pm |
Shit, where to start?
So guess what, MYSPACE IS EVIL! My extremely talented in every way friend and I have decided to boycott this new fad for one simple reason, IT FUCKIN SUCKS! Not to mention rebellion is the shit! So here is our motto "FUCK YOU TOM." Yea, so anyways now that I have finished my fuckin rave of anger... sorry i just get so... INFURIATED. TOM... MUST... DIE! (HEY RYAN STOP SMOKIN CRACK) HEY FUCK YOU BUDDY! Yep... Alright here's something to fuckin turn your temples... Who invented the finger, compliments to Dane Cook for that one little irritating question. I'm done with this talkin about nothin bullshit for a while. Current Mood: I'm not gonna tell you! |
| Saturday, March 26th, 2005 |
| 6:38 pm |
finally, now i cant stop missing you!
well i guess it couldnt hurt to write in this again so today jacki was being rather incredible and decided to make me feel happy just because shes appearently sweet like that and then we talked for a long time about random shit, god i missed that! and i missed that girl! i am so happy that things are still the way they were... gotta love jacki! lol anyways i think i shouldnt write too much in here i dont want to wear myself out before i get back into the habit lol Current Mood: ecstaticCurrent Music: i miss you - blink 182 |
| Friday, February 11th, 2005 |
| 9:24 am |
well i had my surgery yesterday. they couldnt find a good vein for my IV so they had to stab me like 5 times, no big deal though just annoying. so after they put the IV in me they gave me this medicine that made me all goofey (and we all know im already wierd enough). so after i got the goofey medicine i looked at my arm and i had a wrist band that says ceclor because its a kind of medicine that im allergic to and for some reason i was insisting that it was my doctors name and that it was pronounced seslor, so my mom thought that was pretty funny. then i started talking about the IV and i was calling it an RV u know one of those big vehicles. and i was like ahh why do i need this RV in my arm? then i decided id take that stupid cap and put it over my face while i was wearing these wierd looking blue gloves, that kinda got most of the nurses laughing. then i asked the nurse that came in to give me the anestetic why they put alchohal on people before they give them lethal injections. she just kinda laughed and shook her head and then this guy came to wheel my bed into the hall and on our way to the surgery room i asked him what the speed limit is down this hallway and he told me it was the... eh i dont know what its called but you know that highway thing in some other country where there isnt a speed limit? then i asked him what the chances are that we could go a little faster so we were goin really fast down the hall, that guy was sooo fun. but after that i was out. cant stay up after they get that anestetia in u. so when i woke up some lady was standing over me and telling me to wake up and i had an oxygen mask. she told me to take a deep breath of the oxygen and i did but i was out again before i could breathe it out lol. they finally got me up and took the darn IV outta my arm then let me get dressed. after i got dressed they were like o hold on we will get a wheelchair for u. and i was like why i can walk just fine, i had my adnoids taken out, they didnt cut off my feet or anything. then the lady insisted upon it because it was hospital policy. so while im being pushed around in the wheelchair i notice how people look at you and stare and have these looks of pity, and i realized how terrible it must be for people that always really have to be in wheelchairs, it kinda pissed me off. then i got in the car and got home and after i called steve and sam i was back to sleep for 5 and a half hours. then at 7 15 i woke up and i felt a little sore but thats about it. today i feel almost perfect, i dont know what they were talking about when they said id be in bed most of the weekend. they must just be crazy. Current Mood: just a little sore not too badCurrent Music: i feel fine - riddlin kids |
| Monday, January 31st, 2005 |
| 9:16 pm |
i dont understand...... do i annoy people lately or somethin? i was just talkin to a certain girl, and im sure u all know who she is. but she told me how annoying i am nowadays... come to think of it im always the one that has to start conversation with people, and if i dont keep it goin they will stop talking, almost as if they are sneaking away. do i annoy any of u guys?? Current Mood: confusedCurrent Music: jumper - third eye blind |
| Sunday, January 30th, 2005 |
| 11:51 pm |
thinkin about her and her problems.......
These arms remain stretched out to you Maybe someday you'll accept them Or maybe its too late to save a young girls heart that's long stopped beating Wake up, wake up you've gotta believe Wake up, wake up you cant give up Time keeps going on without us Long after we're dead and gone I wish there was something i could say To erase each and every page You've been through Even though its not my place to save you i hope things start goin better for you, yeah i know you say things are fine, and you feel fine but im just not too sure about that. Current Mood: worried |
| Thursday, January 27th, 2005 |
| 3:24 pm |
its been a really good day. i dont know why it just has. it feels so good to feel so happy for no appearant reason, i need to do this more often! lol geeze good times... Current Mood: energeticCurrent Music: i feel fine - riddlin kids |
| Wednesday, January 26th, 2005 |
| 10:24 pm |
history repeats its self
well sidney started talkin to me out of no where today, odd. and looks like jacki and chris might have some hope again..... funny isnt this how things were a while ago? well i guess history does repeat its self, just kinda worried about the whole talkin to sidney thing... i finally got over her, am i gonna fall again? Current Mood: curiousCurrent Music: Pain - Jimmy Eat World |
| 3:59 pm |
im on the verge of swearin its the last time and swearin its my last try. uggh :( |
| Tuesday, January 25th, 2005 |
| 11:03 pm |
One day I feel so happy, the next I feel so sad. i gotta learn to take the good with the bad.
alright so schools been pretty gay lately cuz of the gay seating charts nowadays that the teachers call "random", i dont believe that shit for a second. mrs fox purposely puts me and jeff close enough to want to talk to eachother but too far away to talk without her noticing..... shes fuckin evil o yea look at that i used 5 dots and theres nothin u can do about it fox HA! and now in sextons class, thanks to his sudden disappearence, we have a seating chart which was one of the only 2 classes that i had open seating in. brakens hour is alright cuz all we do is take notes on his lectures for about 40 minutes then get the rest of the time to ourselves. wernaus class.... not one of my favorites. crambs class i have a really bad seat. beatties is starting to be alright tho. then theres the cody issue. cody has been gone for way more than a year now which was supposed to be the longest possible length of time that hed be gone for and now he says he dosent know when hes coming back, does anyone else think that fucking sucks?? then theres THAT thing ugh, what is with this i bounce from one problem to another back to the other when it comes to that stuff, i really need to start falling for people that arent outta my leauge and shit, o wait there isnt anyone in my leauge, so thats why its so hard to do that... and now u are updated so have fun with that Current Mood: blankCurrent Music: the steady pounding of my head hitting the wall |
| 1:24 pm |
why cant i get it through my head?? it's not gonna happen so give up... why cant i just leave it and forget about it? its impossible, it wont happen with her. HOW DID I GET INTO THIS POSITION?!? i dont even remember when this all started! ARG!! shes a great friend i need to just leave it at that and hope that she sticks around. Current Mood: frustratedCurrent Music: voices in my head sayin shes only gonna b a friend you idiot |
| Tuesday, January 18th, 2005 |
| 8:12 pm |
o yea and the whole new journal setup is fuckin awesome dont pretend like you dont like it |
| 8:04 pm |
HAHAHAHA i just woke up and the first thing i did was read jackis journal and it said somethin that reminded me of a part of fight club and ive been sittin here by myself just laughin like an idiot about it ever since.......... geeze i gotta do this whole being half awake thing more often well the first day of mid terms (braken and sexton) was fuckin easy. lol........ panda Current Mood: half awake |
| Saturday, January 15th, 2005 |
| 9:10 pm |
I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head where I would impress you with every single word I said. Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming and you'd want to call me And I would be there every time you'd need me I'd be there every time... But for now I'll look so longingly waiting... For you to want me, for you to need me, for you to notice me theres always gonna be some problem i guess........ i get rid of one problem and another pops up |
| Wednesday, January 12th, 2005 |
| 10:30 pm |
just for the latest update............ jackis a cootie faced loser! :P |
| Tuesday, January 11th, 2005 |
| 11:17 pm |
I hope this girl is gonna be alright............. She's been thinking, wishing she could hide From the girls with the comments passing by She'll be spending her whole weekend Faking laughs and faking smiles With her fake friends She's gonna break soon With so many problems in her life It really comes as no surprise She's gonna break soon She's gonna break come on you and i know you can pull yourself outta this one. this problem , like all the others, is gonna be hidden under layers of smiles and laughes that are of deception. dont let it break you. |